September 11, 2012

Turning 26

I rang in my last birthday along with three very important people.

One of them is no longer a part of my life.

Another one is on a self-imposed indefinite sabbatical from me.

The third person, thankfully, is still in my life. I had almost lost her too, but better sense prevailed and we both hung on.

This last one year has been one of the most turbulent years of my life.

I thought I would be married by my 26th birthday, to the guy I was in love with. And I tried with every fibre of my being to make it happen. But God had other plans. God said “Let’s see how grown-up you are” and threw a bunch of googlies in my way. I don’t know how well I have dealt with them, but dealt with them, I have, for sure.

So here I am, on my 26th, with my Lily and Marshall. Still single, engaged to be married by this year-end. I don’t know whether I am happy or not. I still eye happiness with a little bit of suspicion. It’ll take time, but I’m working on it. But I think I’m content. At peace, if I may. My demons don’t bother me so much lately. They haven’t gone away completely, either. That’ll take time as well. I’m slowly trying to prepare myself for a whole new life phase.

This is my last birthday in Hyderabad. The city I've come to look upon as my own. The thought of leaving is killing me, but I have to go. This place has too many memories. I may never be able to move on in life if I continue to stay here. So more than preparing myself for marriage, I’ve been trying to prepare myself for leaving my Hyderabad. The withdrawal symptoms have started.

Turning 26, definitely hasn’t been easy.

But hey, I’m still alive. And that’s something to celebrate, isn't it? :)

Happy birthday, me.

ETA: I posted this after midnight on 12th. I don't know why the date is showing as 11th.

26 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday!
    And well, God's plan is always better than our own. You'll be fine :)

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  2. Happy Birthday you! I feel old listening to you talk about turning 26. Seems like a lifetime away. You've had a tough year but hopefully, the 26th year of your life will bring a lot more positivity. Take care! Best wishes for the upcoming move and wedding...

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    1. Thank you so much, PB. :)
      Ya, it's been a tough year. But I've realised that I'm a survivor. Good for me. :)

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  3. Happy Birthday :) Growing up really does not mean getting bigger. It is all about becoming awesome. That you are, for sure!

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    1. Aww.. you're too kind. :) Thanks, sweetie.

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  4. Hmm... Probably because the time that is being shown is Pacific Day Time (PDT)...

    Well, all the best with your new life, Hyderabad will miss you...

    But please do keep blogging, because reading your blog has kind of become part of the system!!!

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    1. Yes yes, i will keep blogging. :)

      Thank you so much.

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  5. Happy birthday to you, Divya! :)

    I am sure a wonderful life lies ahead. Have a great day, eat lots of cake, and spend time with the people you love. May the year ahead be lovely!

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  6. Happy Birthday, Spiff!
    You and I share the same birth date :-)
    I started reading your blog quite recently and do come here often.
    I'm happy for you because this b'day is going to be a start of happier times for you. Good luck and good wishes :-)

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    1. You and Spiff share the same birthdate with Thalaivar, Boss, Rajnikanth! Dot.

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    2. @Uma: Seriously? We share the same b'day? How cool is that! :D
      Happy b'day, babes.
      And thank you. :)

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    3. @Arch: Seriously, it's Thalaivar's birthday too today?

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    4. @ Arch and spiff: actually, not a fan of Mr. Rajni but the stardom and fan following he has attained is just too amazing to ignore. And, I like the fact that he comes across as a humble person. So, am glad we share the dates :-)))

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  7. Happy Birthday, girl! Wish you all the happiness in the world, in the years to come. Wish you a great new life ahead! :)

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  8. Happy Birthday Spiff and I'm sure you just turned 26 times more awesomer :D

    God bless you, for the birthday, for the wedding and to face Chennai!

    Lots of love and hugs!

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  9. happy birthday dear.. may you get all the happiness you desire :)

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  10. I wished you on FB..erikatte oru wish koodi..Happies Birthdayss..

    I am sure this year you will find a lot of happiness and peace.Sweetheart,I'd pray for that cause you deserve all that and much more..

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  11. Happy birthday Divya. Hope you have a great year ahead :)

    Cheers
    CRD

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  12. And so the 26th post on your blog this year:). Emotions overwhelm in all your post and really interesting to read...

    Happy Birthday!!

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  13. And so the 26th beautiful post on your blog this year:). Emotions overwhelm in all your post and really interesting to read...

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